Today, i faced a very simple struggle that I guess most people will easily overcome.... I was angry with myself that I actually have to struggle with small struggles when it should be easy to overcome. However, I really thank God that I overcame it....
K, many people will wonder what this simple struggle is.... Actually I think it is so simple that it is actually quite laughable..... Today, I received Yanheng sms asking the brothers to join him to buy gospel tracts for the Taiwan trip.... Really nice of him to initiate this... He sms me at about 8 while I received it at 11 (after waking up... super late right?)... This is when I started struggling.... Should I go or should I not.... Some people might ask, why should I struggle over such stuff? (Some may feel that this is nothing to do with Christian life... it is just going out with friends) Those high I and high S will immediately say yes... (they are very friends-oriented)....
Well, I am a DC.... so I am very very task oriented.... One of my first few thoughts was "Do they need me there?" (Weird qn but that was what I thought). Cos if you think about it, you only need one or at most two people to go and buy the gospel tracts and then those one or two will just split the tracts with the rest at the airport or at Taiwan. Well, I sms Yanheng when and where they will meet to buy the tracts.... After sending the sms, I was actually wishing that he said that they had already met up or it is too late to meet up.... Part of me was wishing that I do not need to go... The other part of me was reminding me that I will be giving up yet another opportunity to serve if I do not go ( some will wonder whether this is actually serving... to me it is... it is to take ownership of the Taiwan trip... to fulfill the third point of sharing the gospel to the locals)... Excuses of all sorts start popping into my head e.g. I haven't pack up for the Taiwan trip. If I go, I will probably argue with my mom again. blah blah blah... Then the thought that I am giving up another opportunity to serve keep surfacing in my mind... Thank God for that... really.... I know that by myself I will probably choose the option to slack... One thing that remind me not to give up the opportunity was the QT that I did this morning... The gist of it is simply, look, just look at the God who save us.... there is really nothing really complicated with the looking.... the challenge is whether we can constant look at God and give up the things that are distracting us.... Well, in this case the distraction was the packing (which can be done relatively fast), the "free" time can be used to slack and use computer or watch TV etc... So went there.... was late, but then the whole fellowship time, buying of tracts and tissue packs (apparently there are tissue packs with gospel, very innovative and good method of sharing gospel) and books....
All I can say is that when you give up something for God, God will not ill treat you.... In fact He will bless you in all sorts of way... may not be in the material sense, but can be in another areas like joy, understanding of friends etc.... way better than what you give up....Need to finish my packing or I will be unable to sleep... hahahaha
To God Be the Glory
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