feeling better

Well, Kai En, thanks for your concern.... haha, feeling much better.... well.... was feeling down because like somehow like i am still so distanced from you all.... haha, had a chat with wei en last night, after the concert though... haha, it was late so didn't talk to you Kai En.... sorry.... well.... I was feeling down because I felt like I wasn't really part of the team in CYYAM.... haha, like after the retreat like everyone super gum together.... Wasn't jealous.... but like feel like not part of it.... so kinda feel a bit left out.... Nothing wrong with being super gum.... in fact it was super good.... just that I don't really understand why like its seem like everyone was zooming off with the word "go" while like it seem like I just only took a step away from the starting line.... Well, haha, did pray about it.... and God really give me an answer almost right away on Saturday.... The author said that when it seems like others have lots of progress, while you are only seem to be chugging slowly, God may have a reason for it.... He has the reason for me to wait.... so just depend on it..... (the basic geist of it).... Wei En also reminded me that it is not about comparing between people but rather whether that is the pace that God wants me to go.... It is more important to be closer to God and have a good relationship than anything else.... God will then settle the rest.... Well, thanks Wei En... was really reminded.... Well, the only thing that I can do now is to trust God's plan.... though don't seem to understand it.... haha... Wei En said that may be God purposely put a pause to see how I will handle and overcome this.... oh wells..... may be..... haha....
All in All to God be the Glory