ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..... stats...... want to puke blood.......................... someone SAVE MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!

studying stats now..... super super boring..... haha, just had proj meetings.... feeling so sian..... when is the day gonna end?

Well, today's QT was very good reminder for me.... haha.... It reminded me about the fact that when God is our portion forever, everything else just seem like nothing.... Wealth, smarts, looks etc.... In fact, God use the opposite to shame those who are wealthy, smart and good-looking.... not because they have anything to really boast about themselves but rather because they have their inheritance in the Almighty God. In fact, people who are usually blessed with material things tend to neglect or rebel the ONE that created all these things....

Well, why did it leave such a big impact on me? Well, we face lots of new people in the new school.... People who are much smarter than me, better looking and more wealthy etc. It really seem as if they will be sure to succeed.... Well, I don't have their smarts (not saying that God gave me none.... just that sometimes it does feel kinda inadequate-my own feelings.... not that it is true or anything), their quick minds, eloquent speech etc.... Kinda like i will be the back of the pack.... Feeling overwhelmed, pressured, and also wondering whether this is where God really wants me to go.... haha, Well, God is my portion forever.... He will provide.... I dunno how my results will be or whether i will impress the teachers or be super popular.... but that is not the most impt thing... in fact those things are just noise.... God will be the one who will provide what He think is best for me. I cannot trust myself for my results. But i can trust in God.... (this doesn't mean i shed myself from any responsibility. Just that I know i am not in control of such stuff)... Sometimes really tempted to use my smarts to impress the teacher for no good reason.... but then thank God that He constantly reminded me not to.....

The correct focus is so impt.... I pray that I will continue to have the correct focus and may God be my portion forever.... Amen
TO GOD BE THE GLORY

school

Been really busy with school recently.... grins, started to neglect on my blog already.... sometimes, really felt super overwhelmed by having to go to school again. Was looking forward to it when I was in army. However, now i started to have second thoughts. Haha, may be i was brain dead for too long.... the work starts to pile up already... many things to read and do..... oh wells, this is uni life.... Hope that I will not neglect my relationship with God..... Continue to pray for me.... thanks