Not of This World

Hannah... Focus and Faith... Simple request... Giant Character

2011-01-25T21:11:00.000-08:00

Well, i wonder whether anyone will be reading this more or less dead blog where I have never posted for eons of years. However, I really think I should share something that I have learnt from QT today.

Decided to read 1 Samuel after yesterday sermon. God doesn't disappoint.... when does He ever disappoint? Learnt so much from such a minor character- 2 Chapters at most... but her life change Israel... Her life exude something that many other characters don't. Simple woman, simple request, Giant faith and Giant woman of God... A character that we can seriously learn from....

5 things that I have gathered from today's QT:
1) When she was grieving really hard, inconsolable... She turn to God... not find comfort in other things... (e.g. husband, material possessions like bigger portion)
2) Earnest, Sincere and intense prayer... so focused... while when we are in trouble or greiving, our prayers are just so half-hearted. same for in times of peace (Mind and heart totally focus on God vs of focus on problems)
3) First thing that she thought of when she is blessed is to bless the Lord... Never withold anything if she is blessed... Even giving up the thing that she has requested for
4)Once after prayer, she immediately stop grieving... (mega trust and faith... no signs of worry)
5) Testify to God's goodness even when facing immediate separation of her most precious thing (v 24-28)

Such a woman of God... I really feel so ashamed of myself... a giant character that i must learn from :D

Me talking to my soul 1

2009-12-28T19:33:00.001-08:00

Why go for the peanuts when u can have the gold?

Christian life will give you more thrill and excitement and exhalirating experience than bungee jumping, skydiving, roller coaster rides, motorcycling etc....

Look at the promises given by the bible
Tribulation, distress, persecution, famine, nakedness, peril, sword—we are regarded as sheep to be slaughtered (Romans 8:35–36)

Definitely more wonderful right? Putting your life on the line for an eternal purpose instead of something temporary and most of the time doesn't put your life on the line...Definitely way more interesting,exciting and something worth experiencing....

But remember, not to be seeking the rush of adrenaline or be thrill-seeking by itself, or you will be putting it as god..... God created and build you to enjoy the rush of adrenaline and enjoy the thrills that others may do all things to avoid so that you will fulfill His purpose, whatever it might be...
Jia you in following God

To God be the Glory

Its all good because of God

2009-12-27T21:14:00.000-08:00

The more you understand God, the more you will find that you don't understand Him because there is so much more things to understand about Him..... infinitely more.... The more you understand God, the more you will find that you are just some puny, idiotic, wicked, evil, foolish, terrible, uncouth, bigot, proud, stupid, little faith (so on and so forth..... whatever words that comes into mind, paste here)...... But its all good.... For the Lord judge us not by this standard (Woe to us if He did), but He judge us according to our redeemer (Our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ).....

Tough as life might be, I know that its all good because our Redeemer and our Savior lives

To God be the Glory

2009-11-14T06:39:00.000-08:00

Irony 1

2009-07-24T20:18:00.000-07:00

"Free" speech tend to be available only if one conforms to the loudest voice in society on a particular stand... as what it seems in more or less all the societies on Earth...

To God be the Glory

what is our magnitude of our hatred against sin?

2009-07-06T21:12:00.000-07:00

We humans like to measure everything..... every single thing.... but we never really bother to measure the magnitude of our hatred against sin.... Not that it really can be measured.... but we should reflect daily our hatred against sin and whether we have become lax against sin.... Of course by ourselves we cannot win.... But our responsibility is to constantly reflect how much is our hatred against sin.... whether it is venomously strong or sponge weak.... And a constant prayer to ask God for strength to win the constant struggle against sin in our daily lives...

To God Be the Glory

QT today

2009-07-06T21:09:00.000-07:00

Something that I have learnt today and have to learn to carry out. Christian life needs to have prayer, worship and fasting.... I don't seem to do well with all three.... but especially on fasting (didn't even think I have fasted before). God help me

To God Be the Glory

Something that we can glean from Joshua 23

2009-07-06T06:27:00.000-07:00

Joshua 23

Joshua’s Charge to Israel’s Leaders

1A long time afterward, when the LORD had given(A) rest to Israel from all their surrounding enemies, and Joshua(B) was old and well advanced in years, 2Joshua(C) summoned all Israel, its elders and heads, its judges and officers, and said to them, "I am now old and well advanced in years. 3And you have seen all that the LORD your God has done to all these nations for your sake,(D) for it is the LORD your God who has fought for you. 4Behold,(E) I have allotted to you as an inheritance for your tribes those nations that remain, along with all the nations that I have already cut off, from the Jordan to the Great Sea in the west. 5The LORD your God(F) will push them back before you and drive them out of your sight. And you shall possess their land,(G) just as the LORD your God promised you. 6Therefore,(H) be very strong to keep and to do all that is written in the Book of the Law of Moses,(I) turning aside from it neither to the right hand nor to the left, 7(J) that you may not mix with these nations remaining among you(K) or make mention of the names of their gods(L) or swear by them or serve them or bow down to them, 8(M) but you shall cling to the LORD your God just as you have done to this day. 9(N) For the LORD has driven out before you great and strong nations. And as for you,(O) no man has been able to stand before you to this day. 10(P) One man of you puts to flight a thousand, since it is the LORD your God(Q) who fights for you, just as he promised you. 11(R) Be very careful, therefore, to love the LORD your God. 12For if you turn back and cling to the remnant of these nations remaining among you(S) and make marriages with them, so that you associate with them and they with you, 13know for certain that(T) the LORD your God will no longer drive out these nations before you,(U) but they shall be a snare and a trap for you, a whip on your sides and thorns in your eyes, until you perish from off this good ground that the LORD your God has given you.
14"And now(V) I am about to go the way of all the earth, and you know in your hearts and souls, all of you, that(W) not one word has failed of all the good things[a] that the LORD your God promised concerning you. All have come to pass for you; not one of them has failed. 15But just as all the good things that the LORD your God promised concerning you have been fulfilled for you, so the LORD will bring upon you(X) all the evil things, until he has destroyed you from off this good land that the LORD your God has given you, 16if you transgress the covenant of the LORD your God, which he commanded you, and go and serve other gods and bow down to them. Then the anger of the LORD will be kindled against you, and you shall perish quickly from off the good land that he has given to you."

In Joshua 23, we can see Joshua's charge to the Israelite to clear out, stamp out and root out all the foreign inhabitants and to love the Lord with all their hearts. If they do not root out all the inhabitants and instead cling onto these people and intermarry or have some form of interaction with them, then these people will be a snare and a trap and it will cause the people of Israel to perish.

Well, doesn't this seem very much like how we should deal with sin? If we don't root out, stamp out or destroy sin in our lives and instead cling on to it and either trivalise the gravity of sin, allow bits and pieces of it. It will be a trap and snare to us and it will cause us to perish if we persist in it. It is a serious battle that we have to constantly cling on to God or we will not be able to win the battle. We must also have a serious resolve and such strong hatred against sin and keep weeding them out. Christians are born-again. However, we are not sinless. We are sinners running a race and fighting a battle so that we will receive the crown of glory in the end. The old us, Satan, and the world will constantly try to draw us away from God. If we leave sin as it is, or are weak-will, or slothfully clearing up instead of going all out with all guns blazing against the enemy, thinking that it is ok because one can "handle it", too small to take good notice, or not really a problem, then be prepared to fall hard.... very hard.... But we are not without hope. We see in Judges that God provided Israel with people who brought them out of their hopeless situation everytime they cried out to the Lord. God have given us someone way better than any judges in Judges. He gave us Jesus Christ who died on the Cross for us. In our Christian life it is impossible not to stumble and fall for we are all weak. However, if we turn to the Lord and ask for forgiveness and truly repent, God will forgive us of our sins and will lead us out of the entanglement of sin. We have to keep praying that we will not become like Israelites in the Judges where they cried out to the Lord, get saved and then after a while, go back to their old ways. It will be a continuous battle. There will be lots of scars and pains and serious hurts. We might lose a limb or two. However, victory is already secured. The crucial part is whether we really serve God as our Lord and King or is it something else.

To God Be the Glory

Paradox 1

2009-07-06T03:45:00.001-07:00

When you think you are any good, then you are no good at all....
(Romans 3:23,Psalm14:3)

To God Be the Glory

Thought of the day

2009-03-11T07:02:00.001-07:00

James 4:7

Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.

Another thought for the day

2009-03-09T21:29:00.000-07:00

1 Thessalonians 4:1-8

Finally then, brethren, we request and exhort you in the Lord Jesus, that as you received from us instruction as to how you ought to walk and please God (just as you actually do walk), that you excel still more. 2 For you know what commandments we gave you by the authority of the Lord Jesus. 3 For this is the will of God, your sanctification; that is, that you abstain from sexual immorality; 4 that each of you know how to possess his own vessel in sanctification and honor, 5 not in lustful passion, like the Gentiles who do not know God; 6 and that no man transgress and defraud his brother in the matter because the Lord is the avenger in all these things, just as we also told you before and solemnly warned you. 7 For God has not called us for the purpose of impurity, but in sanctification. 8 So, he who rejects this is not rejecting man but the God who gives His Holy Spirit to you.

Thought for the day

2009-03-09T19:10:00.000-07:00

Jesus said to him, "If it is my will that he remain until I come, what is that to you? You follow me!" John 21:22

thinking thru

2009-03-09T09:27:00.000-07:00

Well, today have some issues going on with one bro.... my fault for not doing a good job with some stuff.... Well, he gave some constructive comments. At the same time, he ask how I feel and stuff... He say that i should honestly tell him if got any issue etc cos he said that I have the tendancy to suppress my feelings... At first i didn't think much and i just said ya... but now after thinking through, i really don't think i am that sort of person.

I don't know why there are some people who say that I suppress my feelings... Well, maybe that is because they don't really know me I guess? I am the type to just said things out as how i see it. Used to be really frank... but cos there is a tendency to hurt others, so now normally watch what I say... but I still do it with as much as frankness as possible... Feelings etc.... I just feel that well, there isn't much things to suppress anyway. (1)Always review whether what that person's comment was true. (2) If it was true, then just change... (3) If not, just tell the person that what they say isn't true. If you know that person is a bigot or someone with deaf ears, I will probably won't even be bothered to tell them that their view of me is wrong. I feel that God will change their views one day. Honestly, sometimes I will be hurt... So I tend to pray about it, talk to some people abt it etc. Anyways, if its not true, I tend not to dwell on it, esp if it is hurting. I used to dwell on it, but i find that it is useless to dwell on it, so I learn and still learning to just let it go and instead to continue to face God and let Him heal the hurt and also help me focus on the more important things.

May be it is just that i usually don't have intense feelings... I tend to have mild feelings with regards to everything unless that is something that is seriously important etc... haha... oh wells

I dunno why there are some people who say that I suppress my feelings, cos I don't. Period.

Thinking of how to squeeze out more time when i don't have enough time to work with

2009-02-23T07:09:00.001-08:00

I believe everyone always have the thought that we just don't have enough time.... Well, I find that I AM SERIOUSLY SHORT OF TIME... so i have thought of how to be more time efficient. Lets see my current time table

Sleep:5-6hrs
Breakfast, lunch, dinner: 1.5hrs
Work, QT,travel and prayer (Work take overwhelming time though): 14.5hrs to 15.5 hrs
Break: 2hrs

hence, only way to squeeze out time conventionally is cut away the breaks and increase the work hours. hence 16.5hrs to 17.5hrs.

Another way... new sleeping method that i have learned on the internet.... work 2hrs and sleep 20 mins after that. So.... i will be sleeping only 2hrs and have supposely the same efficiency and 8hrs of sleep.... thinking of trying that......

Tired out

2009-02-22T03:52:00.000-08:00

I am seriously totalled.... sleep debts start playing catch-up, insane amount of work, projects and mid-terms.... totally tired out.... still have 7 weeks more of craziness.... Oh well, i guess i have to keep pushing forward.... He will provide in my weaknesses and my tiredness...
To God Be the Glory

One of my fav contempory band

2009-02-19T19:05:00.000-08:00

Love this band...:D

One of my fav Christian metal band

2009-02-19T08:06:00.001-08:00

This is one of my fav Christian metal band latest album :D

Another thought

2009-02-18T21:40:00.001-08:00

Matthew 10:28, “And do not fear those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather fear him who can destroy both soul and body in hell.” In other words, Don’t fear man, fear God. Tremble at the prospect of distrusting God, not displeasing man.

Taken from John Piper sermon

http://www.desiringgod.org/ResourceLibrary/Sermons/ByTopic/78/205_The_Present_Effects_of_Trembling_at_the_Wrath_of_God/

one of the many thoughts of the day

2009-02-18T07:44:00.000-08:00

Been thinking about this when i was chatting to Pei En on unrelated stuff.... The thought just pop in my head because of readings of articles somewhere I guess.... (oh ya, desiringgod) where we the gospel is to be shared not just to the unbelievers but also to a believer.... yeah, thats right.... believers.... for encouragement etc....

My point today isn't about why should the gospel be preached to a believer.... you can read it from desiringgod where they would likely to be a much better explanation than me. My focus today is more about challenging ourselves (Christians) to see whether we have strayed off course....

Do you feel bored when you listen to the gospel? with reasons like, I listen to it so many times. I had already memorized it to heart. Its for the non-Christian and hence is of little relations to me ( yes, there are such thoughts.... I used to have that thinking.... Lord have mercy on me) etc etc....

So whats my point? My point is.... We can watch and listen to so many reruns of television, songs, movies, books, magazines, games etc etc and not get bored. However, we get switch off easily by the gospel. Well, we don't get bored with the reruns because either it is exciting (action), emotional, and sounds and looks wonderful. THEN, lets ponder a bit...... ISN'T THE GOSPEL MORE EXCITING, EMOTIONAL,ENGAGING AND SOUNDS AND LOOK MORE WONDERFUL? And here we are, switching off to the gospel and get attracted to the reruns....

We tend to say to people " oh come on, get a life." Well, I am going to say to my readers here and now.... Go get a life.... the GOSPEL IS INFINITELY BETTER THAN THE RERUNS OR EVEN THE PREMIERE OF SHOWS BLAH BLAH BLAH..... Savour the gospel over and over again.... Fall in Love with God again and again.... Praise Him every min of the day..... Enjoy the most exciting and wonderful event in human history..... This is LIFE.... nothing else is....

so GO GET A LIFE!!!!

God have mercy in our weaknesses

TO GOD BE THE GLORY, GREAT THINGS HE HAS DONE!

Fruit for thought

2009-02-06T19:44:00.000-08:00

http://www.desiringgod.org/ResourceLibrary/AskPastorJohn/ByTopic/45/3578_Is_it_biblical_to_think_that_physical_attraction_must_be_a_component_of_a_godly_marriage/

something to ponder and meditate upon

Genesis 3: The Fall

2009-02-02T04:34:00.000-08:00

Before I go into my thinking proper, just want to ask my readers some questions. Its of no consequence to theology i think but i find it rather interesting. How come Eve ate the fruit of good and evil first, and Adam second, and both had their eyes open at the same time? Is it because they are one?

Well, today was reading on Genesis three on the bus. Had been thinking about the whole significance of the whole event. We can suppose that this event take place some time after the day of human creation. Well, why is this important? The time spent with the Lord is an important point for latter. We can see that when the Serpent tempted the woman whether they can eat the fruit of good and evil. The woman said that they cannot eat it or touch it. If we look at Genesis chapter 2:17, we can see that it only mentioned eating it. Therefore, this leave us with two possibility of what happened. When God gave that order, it was only to Adam, because only Adam was in existent. Therefore, one reason is that Adam, as the head of the household, did not teach Eve the proper things that God has commanded him and therefore failed as the head of the household. The second possible reason is that Adam thought her the correct thing, but when she was challenged by Satan, she failed to recall the correct thing.

If the first one is true, then the time spent with the Lord is very important factor. They have a walk with God that we will not understand until we return to heaven. They, at that point was holy because they were sinless. They get to meet God face to face. Talk with Him etc. After the fall, Man couldn't face Him, much less talk to God in a way possible except Adam, Eve and Jesus.

If Adam did indeed told Eve the wrong thing. The conversation with God will probably corrected that. I am not sure. Because I am not there, and the bible didn't state the reason. However, I am quite sure that from the conversation and from the walk with God, Adam and Eve will have known God's character (e.g. whatever He say is right etc). They then shouldn't have toyed with the idea of eating the fruit, which obviously they did.

Well, then this will lead to another question. Did Eve sin when she started having thoughts to eat it or the action of eating it? If we go by the NT definition, then the thoughts of eating it is sin, not the action. The woman was deceived, man wasn't. So man was in direct rebellion to God's sovereignity. The Man's thoughts wasn't shown in the bible, but I think you can kind of guess it. If he didn't have thoughts about eating it, he would have stopped her from thinking must less eating it.

Well, does the thinking that touching the fruit will cause death affect how the things turn out? Yes. When she touch the fruit, she didn't die. Which leads to eating of it. Well, then, there will be argument that she have sinned by thinking of eating it. However, lets not go into that argument first for that is not the main point. The point that i want to bring across is this: If Adam and Eve have been with the Lord for some time and know His character more intimately than us and still can fail to know the right order of things, how much more then must we read, understand, pray for the correct heart, and carry out the Word to avoid and flee from temptation. Psalm 1:2 stated that a righteous man will meditate on His law day and night. It is not a condition that we can either take it or leave it, but rather it is a prerequiste of all Christian. We are considered righteous because of Jesus blood, so we should live a life befitting a righteous man and like a citizen of Heaven.

We may not have know God in a level that Adam and Eve have, but then through Jesus Christ and His blood, we have known God in another level. We cannot prevent Satan from attacking us, therefore we can only sharpen the sword (His Word), prayer, more prayer and follow His commandments. Remember, we are as prone to pride as Adam and Eve (actually Adam). Therefore we have to be humble, and the only way to that is believe in Jesus Christ that they have saved you. Ask for forgiveness, read, understand and live out His commandments and PRAY PRAY PRAY.

Will be talking about sin avoidance vs cardinal desires and more abt Genesis 3 next time.

To God Be The Glory, Our Cornerstone and Our Saviour

Thoughts for the day

2009-01-13T07:25:00.000-08:00

Well, actually i intended to go on a hiatus because school started and there is like a lot of work piling up. However, really thank God that I get to do most of my work. Currently really feeling quite tired and find it hard to study and I have a lot of thoughts in my head so I might as well post something and take it as a rest... A rest for my brain.

Really thank God that I managed to cope with the readings etc. It wasn't easy and the teachers have high expectations, but I think I managed to cope with it somewhat. QT was also quite fruitful. God challenged me in a lot of areas and I hope to live it out. Well, wasn't regular in terms of prayer for the CYYAM. Pray that I can be more regular with it because I feel that it is really one of the best way to show concern for our brothers and sisters.

Ahhhh..... need to wake up so early on Sunday for the fund raising thing.... haha.... feeling super tired.... oh wells, pray that I will have the strength and stamina to help out.

Oh wells, the toughest day of the week is over..... Today has been rather crazy but thank God for friends, haha, make life easier for me:D

Grin, seem like i am writing in rather incoherent sentences....

Today saw a sms on the talk for girls for the bgr... This actually triggered my memory about a recent chat with a brother-in-Christ about BGR. Well, we were talking about random things before we somehow started chatting about BGR... I still have a pretty good idea of the conversation. One thing that particularly struck me was the part when I said I was still 21..... kkk.... going 22. I said that being 21-22 is still young... He immediately pointed out that actually it's not young anymore... He got a point there. 21-22 isn't exactly young buuuuuuutttt, neither is it exactly old. Lets not talk about the olden times where people get married at 14-18...may be 23 at most. 21-22 is about the time where we should start taking BGR stuff more seriously... Not that it isn't good to think earlier than that, just that it is about time that we should think much much deeper about such stuff.... Shouldn't wait till >27 to start thinking about it. Well, it isn't late, but then you don't have a good idea of what you are looking for when you are from our age onwards.

So what is my thoughts about all this?

The bible actually encourage marriage in many parts of it. Genesis 2 stated the first marriage and why it is good. (Uncle James will have a wonderful bible talk about it... bet everyone is looking forward to it). Paul in his many letters also said that it is good for marriage, esp those who are constantly tempted by (greek:porniea) fornication. Unless one has a gift from God to stay single, then it is good to marry. Well, either ways it is a gift from God. Those who are single shouldn't envy those who are married. If you are not meant to be single, God will provide. If you are meant to be, thank God for you will be able to serve God without certain distractions that couples and family will face. If you are meant to be married or already married, thank God that you have a helper or a leader to help the family grow physically and more importantly (and hopefully) spiritually.

Well, been evaluating myself... I don't think I am meant to be single. Can't be certain for sure, but very likely. Therefore, this means that i have to put more thought into BGR. (man, have to keep reminding myself that it is BGR and not BGS {a uni mod})1. I have to think what are the things that I am looking for in my future partner. 2. What are the stuff that I have to improve upon so that I can lead my future family into a Godly life. 3. What is my goal in my serving ( some will wonder, huh? what has it got to do with finding a partner? will explain in greater detail). 4. Is the Family of God going to support the family and whether the marriage will allow us to work even better with the Family of God. 5.Is the marriage going to allow us to have an even better fellowship with God or not. The list is not exhaustive, but I feel that these are the bigger points that everyone who are meant for marriage to think about. There are probably more reason that I currently in the state of brain deadness cannot think of or due to my limited brain capacity that can only generate minute calculations and reasons that is well, minute. Well, actually these points can be interlink... It is really hard to break them apart.

Why should I (and also those readers who are thinking about it) think about things (e.g. factors, or characteristics) of what you want in your future partner? Well, if I/we do not have an idea of what we are looking for in a partner, we will either 1. fall in love with every single lady/gentleman that walk past us (because you have no factors to consider-meaning that everyone fits) 2. fall in love with no one but yourself (because you have so many factors in your head that only a perfect person can fit in... which is no one but youself.... technically you yourself are not perfect. However, these type of people are usually narcissist) 3. Most of us will probably fall into this category of being in between 1 and 2 where we have some floating idea of who we want but aren't really sure about it. Therefore we keep on scratching our heads and wondering whether he/she is the one. Well, I guess you readers get the drift of why we should be clear of what we should look for in our future partner. (Remember to take into account that your partner can and should be growing spiritually, therefore give them some slack..... don't be a narcissist)

Lets go on to the next point. What are the stuff that I/ we should improve upon. Well, as Christian, our life should be improving and getting closer to Christ's character as the fruit of the Spirit starts to grow. So why should we still think about these. By the way, I think this point is very very important especially to male readers (boy, men, gentlemen, whatever)( I am not saying that this is not important for female readers, but then you see, I am a guy so I am clearer about why guys to take note. Not trying to be sexist). It is very important for us guys because we are suppose to lead a family when we get married. If we have some atrocious habits or some habits that is ungodly in us and the poor girls who get married to such guys because of whatever love reasons(love is not blind, but then it can colour your eyes... lets hope it doesn't colour it that you cannot see beyond the surface because your eyes are coloured opaque black) (therefore, girls, choose wisely. Get your spiritual girl leader to help you see past your coloured vision. By the way, guys too. Get someone to help you see beyond her looks. Sometimes i think we have such wonderful coloured eyes that we just see only the surface e.g. looks and certain characters. Well, don't laugh, we may sometimes have eyes that are coloured worse than opaque black). Well, it is obvious that we will never be perfect during this lifetime, it is not a reason not to change our atrocious characteristics. If we are not improving on those characteristics, it is very likely that you will find it hard to steer your family in a Godly way. Your kids will pick up your wonderfully atrocious habits and you will start wondering who in the world did they learn those habits. Your dear wife will also be lead astray. If she didn't and she kick you such that you wake up your idea, then praise God and be utterly utterly ashamed of yourself. Well, all these can also be found in the bible... don't have the verse with me... Go and enjoy reading the bible and finding the verses that support it :D

OK, NEXXXXXT.... What is my/ our goal in serving. HUH? WHAT? That is my own business right? NOTTTTTTT. Lets take for example. Guy A wants to be a missionary. Guy A likes Girl B. Girl B has other ideas about serving. She wants to serving in the church and hates getting unhygienic, working with people in the missionary field, leaving the comforts of home and family and friends etc. Well, of course there are exceptions where the wife is willing to submit and follow , learning what God wants her to learn even though it is hard for her. However, in many cases she may not be willing to submit or learn in those areas. If you are going to marry her knowing full well that her serving direction is utterly different from yours and is not willing to submit, then you are in for a very jolly good time. Let me just congratulate you because you will be learning many many painful things that you will probably not have learned if you marry someone who has similar goals. Of course such things happen, and it is part of God's plan that you learn from it ( though it is not for the faint-hearted. Guys, don't try to be a hero and think that well, its cool to have such a challenge. I think you will be heading for a good time with Mr Migraine). Instead of complementing each other, you will probably spending much time quarrelling and bickering instead of serving with all your heart and with all your soul. You will probably try to get your voices heard and God will then not be central to your lives. Then again there are exceptions, buttttt, why try to find someone who have a drastically different serving direction from you and not willing to submit and accomodate when there are others who probably can compliment you? (actually this point is open for debate... some will disagree... Well, this point is not a rule, but rather a point of consideration. If you found a partner with a drastic viewpoint of serving that differ from yours and yet you can still serve God with all your heart and soul and mind and glorify Him, by all means, get married)

Point 4 is important. VERY VERY IMPORTANT. If the Family of God don't support your marriage due to various reasons and you are unable to serve the Family of God better as a couple, then I/ us/we/ whatever has to rethink SERIOUSLY whether this marriage is feasible and whether God intends you to be married to the partner. Something is obviously wrong if the Family of God don't support your marriage and you are unable to serve the Family of God better. When I say Family of God it means the church as a whole, not individuals who may also have interest in your partner and express his utter disgust that you are getting married (that guy ought to rethink his attitude because if you two are meant to be, then he should be happy... k that is hard but then if he express utter disgust then obviously he has some attitude problem). The marriage is for the partners to complement each other in serving and I believe that if you complement each other in serving and serve even better than if you two are single then it is remotely unlikely that the Church will not support your marriage unless the pastor is the guy who is utterly disgusted because you took away his ideal partner and lead others astray (the pastor ought to rethink is position and the members of the church should question the ability of the pastor to sheperd the flock)...

Point 5 is very similar to point 4. If you are unable to have better fellowship with God when you are together, then you have to question whether that person is really God intended person. Lets take an analogy. You have 2 batteries. Each battery have the same power. Any person with some IQ who wants greater power will join two batteries together to get more power. However, if he/she gets lower power than what he/she gets with each battery then something must be wrong right? Any sane person will break apart those batteries because it will yield greater power than two together. Any insane person will probably just smash those two batteries up and just laugh at the mess that they made. (if i sound incoherent, pardon me). Well, God is infinitely more sane and more wonderful than any of us. Will he prefer that you have some "lower-powered" fellowship or the "higher-powered" ? Well, it might seem lower power at first but if the net effect in the end is higher powered then it is not within this scope of argument. We as Christians will also don't want our fellowship with God to be lousier than if we are single. (unless you are insane, by which i think you won't get married anyway. If you are sane and yet have contrary thinking, think again).

This conclude today's thought.... k may be not.... considering I have other modules besides this. (hmmm, wait, is this even a mod? may be they should make it a mod). Well, with my limited 21-22 years of experience, walk with God (lesser than 21-22 yrs...), and with my minute brain power and the what nots, this is what i can think of.... Probably have many more etc.... but lets leave it as that shall we? God Bless
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To God be the Glory, THE BEST IS YET TO BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

An update to yesterday's post

2008-10-12T04:24:00.000-07:00

After some further thinking through, I think I should clarify on some things further. With regards to whether it is ok to buy LV bags, BMW7, omega watches or properties, I think you really have to have discretion when buying such goods. Firstly, do you know anyone that has great need for this money? If yes, then you should give it to them instead of buying such goods. Secondly, do these goods retain value or even become more expensive when you sell them? If yes, and if you are ready to sell them when God wants you to sell them so that you can fund Christian works, then I think it is ok to buy them. (Well, that means that BMW7, LV bags [if you do not know how to collect them] are not really good things to buy as they depreciate and hence may not be good stewardship). All in all, these things are temporary, therefore your focus should never be on these. If you find that you have become distracted by such things as with others, then you have to watch out, cos that means you are not putting God as the love of your life or your Lord.

I also think that all in all, discretion and wisdom from God is needed in all things including these. I think these kind of things should not take up as much time as what Christians and the world are giving it now, either by bickering or focussing on such minor stuff. Much effort should instead be on reflecting on what we have done, what are our priorities, sharing gospel, serving etc.

To God Be The Glory

Thoughts abt John piper's post abt not chasing after wealth

2008-10-10T21:31:00.000-07:00

Haha, yesterday during tuition, I was talking abt the economic crisis with Wei Hong, Ziling and Wei En. Grins, we go on and on abt how bad the economy was doing and the debt of the US was like crazy etc. Then I was talking about why we should invest now etc. Then Wei En ask me whether I have read the blog about Don't desire wealth.

Well, I have now. Haha, I agree with him with the part and that there are alot of people salivating at the prospect of pumping in money now and sit on a pile on cash latter. And I definitely agree with him that desiring to be rich is very dangerous. Money after all is the root of all evils and many have indeed got so drawn by it that they have either renounce their faith in God or walk away from God. There are many people who are rich and claim to be Christian. However, when we look into their lives, we find that they are really drawn to the world and also their children are unable to serve God with all their hearts and soul. Just look at the rich families of US and you get the drift.

The pioneers of the USA were faithful to God and God made them prosper. However, just like Israel in the Bible, they slowly walked away from God and now suffer much consequences from it. People may argue that not all the rich are like that, and I agree. However, those people are really the exceptions.

The pursue of the American dream is really like how the bible discribe the rich man storing his wealth and then think he can eat drink and be merry. However, it seem that the rest of the world is also warming up to the idea of the "American" dream..... may be just a different name for it..... like indian dream, Chinese dream blah blah blah. It is more or less the same- The pursue of wealth as an end or a means to live a high life.

So then, is it wrong for Christians to be wealthy or rich? If it is an end or a means to live a high life, then DEFINITELY YES. We are not called to live a high life here, nor to collect riches. The bible warned us of those. Then is it wrong to sit on a pile of cash or to invest? Again, it will depend on your motives. God said that we are stewards of what He has created. Therefore investing is one way to be a better steward. However, many has change investment as a way of owning business to a number machine that generate cash that is no different from the poker table or the roulette table in the casino. If you view it as that, then I think it is better that you don't invest.

I shall correct what I said above... Sitting on a pile of cash and not using it for God's kingdom is also wrong. Cos it is more or less just trying to get rich as an end.

Then what should Christian do to the cash that God has asked us to be stewards of? Investing is a good way. However, if God really bless your endevour, it is not for you to sit on it or spend it on yourselves to buy that LV bag that some of you may want or that BMW7 series, or that omega watch or whatever... Well, if you do buy that, then when it is time for you to fund some missionary or when the church needs it then you must be really be prepared to sell it. And in most cases, people are not willing to let go when the time comes. Therefore, for those who are not willing to let go, then it is better not to buy. Cos it will also mean that you see it as a treasure- A treasure on earth that you want to store up.

Then how? we cannot have any land of our own or house of our own? NO, i don't mean that. What I am saying is that you must be prepared to give it up when God ask us to. Well, Barnabas in Acts did just that. He probably have more than one land deeds or houses. For the love of his brother and sisters, he gave up his properties for God's kingdom. God gave bless him with wealth. He had the choice to choose what he wants to do with it. He chose to do what God commands. He is really an example for those who God has blessed materially.

God bless us so that we can bless others. Sadly, when we are blessed more and more, we become like the old Israelites. We forget God, or we ignore him. And God judgement will be on us.

Therefore, if we are gonna to invest, then we are to give more and more. If we cannot, then i think we shouldn't invest. It is best that you are accountable to those who are close to you so that they can remind you, cos it is very easy for our eyes to just turn elsewhere when we are so blessed.

God help us in our weakness
To God be the Glory

Another food for thought

2008-09-26T23:01:00.000-07:00

How can we avoid sin and temptations? The world and Satan and your old self will frequently provoke you and tempt you into sin. Many books say know God. Know God in terms of knowledge itself? nope. Many pastors and scholars have tons of book knowledge but still failed to know God.

That doesn't mean we should just give up reading the bible. That is part of the process of knowing God. It is not enough however. We need to meditate on it day and night. How much time do we spend meditating on God's words. People will say that they just have no time in these troubling and busy time. That is the irony of things. All the more we are to seek God and His power, majesty and His grace and mercy. How foolish are those who failed to do this. Sadly, i frequently also fall into this trap. God have mercy on me and my friends.

These two actions are still not enough. Actions and thoughts matter too. May be we should ask each other. What actions have we done that are in line with God's words and what are not. What about our thoughts? It is usually the case that we will do what our minds are thinking about.

Next comes prayer. We probably can spend two hours on tv, books, anime, manga, computer games, hanging out with friends but can only spend 3 mins or 30 seconds on prayer. What sad state we are in. With all the signs of revelations around us keep reminding that God's second coming is always one second nearer and here we are still "partying" about. really sad

As the day of the Lord become nearer, the heart of His believers will also become colder and less on fire. However, I believe that there will be a core group who will still burn with passion in Him and still work hard in His strength as we struggle in this passing world. Lets pray that we are in this core group and that this group will get bigger and bigger.

God be glorified in our everyday life.
To God Be the Glory

food for thought from QT

2008-09-19T21:55:00.001-07:00

Do not focus on what we don't have but rather what is given to us.... Covetness ultimately make us stumble and sin while gratefulness in Him will help us walk in His righteous ways....

To God Be the Glory.... May I be satisfied in God for ever....

2008-08-27T01:51:00.000-07:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..... stats...... want to puke blood.......................... someone SAVE MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!

2008-08-26T22:17:00.000-07:00

studying stats now..... super super boring..... haha, just had proj meetings.... feeling so sian..... when is the day gonna end?

2008-08-25T23:11:00.000-07:00

Well, today's QT was very good reminder for me.... haha.... It reminded me about the fact that when God is our portion forever, everything else just seem like nothing.... Wealth, smarts, looks etc.... In fact, God use the opposite to shame those who are wealthy, smart and good-looking.... not because they have anything to really boast about themselves but rather because they have their inheritance in the Almighty God. In fact, people who are usually blessed with material things tend to neglect or rebel the ONE that created all these things....

Well, why did it leave such a big impact on me? Well, we face lots of new people in the new school.... People who are much smarter than me, better looking and more wealthy etc. It really seem as if they will be sure to succeed.... Well, I don't have their smarts (not saying that God gave me none.... just that sometimes it does feel kinda inadequate-my own feelings.... not that it is true or anything), their quick minds, eloquent speech etc.... Kinda like i will be the back of the pack.... Feeling overwhelmed, pressured, and also wondering whether this is where God really wants me to go.... haha, Well, God is my portion forever.... He will provide.... I dunno how my results will be or whether i will impress the teachers or be super popular.... but that is not the most impt thing... in fact those things are just noise.... God will be the one who will provide what He think is best for me. I cannot trust myself for my results. But i can trust in God.... (this doesn't mean i shed myself from any responsibility. Just that I know i am not in control of such stuff)... Sometimes really tempted to use my smarts to impress the teacher for no good reason.... but then thank God that He constantly reminded me not to.....

The correct focus is so impt.... I pray that I will continue to have the correct focus and may God be my portion forever.... Amen
TO GOD BE THE GLORY

school

2008-08-21T09:28:00.000-07:00

Been really busy with school recently.... grins, started to neglect on my blog already.... sometimes, really felt super overwhelmed by having to go to school again. Was looking forward to it when I was in army. However, now i started to have second thoughts. Haha, may be i was brain dead for too long.... the work starts to pile up already... many things to read and do..... oh wells, this is uni life.... Hope that I will not neglect my relationship with God..... Continue to pray for me.... thanks

Red Cliff

2008-07-21T08:59:00.001-07:00

Well, for all those who haven't watch red cliff.... DON'T WATCH... unless you are an arty-farty that is super into visual.... if not, it is a utter waste of time.... or can borrow a vcd or dvd and watch everything at x2 speed... yups.... how many stars for content? 1 out of 5.... visual? 4 out of 5... worth the time?zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Broken

2008-07-19T08:54:00.000-07:00

Well, today meet with my friends today cos of Karno's farewell dinner..... Well, a friend of mine who haven't see me for some time commented that I looked and feel different..... like I am a broken man or something.... Oh wells, yeah, I had been broken really bad in army and JC... Well, when I heard this, I had many feelings flowing through.... If the brokeness comes from God then I really thank Him, cos it means that He cares and He broke me down so that I will build my foundations on Him.... I believed that is what actually happens.... It is definitely better than any other options.... To be broken down by Him means that He wants me to learn certain lessons and God who is a Loving God will discipline those who He loves.... All in all I really thank God... Don't know how the new "building" is gonna look like.... but I believe it will be one of a insane beautiful "building" with a very strong foundation.... May this really be the case.... This is my hope and my wish.....

Thank God and TO GOD BE THE GLORY!!!!

QT

2008-07-08T06:14:00.000-07:00

Been a long time since I have last blogged about my QT.... well today I will do today's and yesterday's one... Really a very good reminder

Yesterday's QT really reminded me. It was talking about Esau's despise of his birthrights and also God. Esau is the firstborn of the twins, hence was suppose to have the birthrights and also spiritual and physical blessings that come with the birthrights. He was suppose to be by in Man's sight God chosen one to be the ancestor of Jesus. However, he despised his birthrights. Being the firstborn and the favoured son of his rich father, he has everything he wanted or needed. He therefore didn't really take the spiritual blessings and future physical blessings seriously. He was the firstborn after all, and hence should be the chosen one no matter what. He really take it for granted, and had no eyes for the spiritual blessings. Jacob however, really crave for the blessings. His method is no doubt wrong, but then God likes the fact that he crave for the spiritual blessings and getting close to God. So therefore, although he did an unscrupulous thing to cheat his brother out of his birthrights, but because of his heart and yearning for God, God chose him. Well, to be more accurate, God choose him before he was born, and therefore chosen by grace... However, Jacob did his part.... The part about his methods is questionable, but God use that wrong thing to train him during the later parts. When Esau came crying asking his father to bless him after his father had already blessed Jacob, he could only give him the second portion. By that time, it was already too late to grasp the blessings.

Well, this story really reminds me and I hope it reminds everyone who reads my blog. Esau rejected and despised Spiritual blessings and God and God rejected him. Sure, God already chosen who is to be saved- Jacob and not Esau- therefore is election by grace. However, he himself also despised it. Just like any non-Christians and Christians before they are saved. However, as chosen children of God, it is possible for us to despise God's commands and His guidance and blessings. Esau was brought up in a "Christian" family. He definitely know about all the things about God and how He blessed Abraham and Issac. However, he didn't choose to do God's Will. Although he is not a "Christian" , Christians now can despise God when we don't put Him in first place. Nowadays, there are many more things that occupies our mind and time. Do we let them master us or do we master them? IF they master us, it is really time to rethink.... because God is then not in the centre of your life. Well, really a good reminder for me... I do need to rethink some things. I allowed some things to take more focus in my life. Has been working on it but haven't been really successful. However, this reminder is really kinda scary. Hope that my focus will be correct. :D pray for me.

Today's QT is about Issac. Issac to many doesn't seem to be a very, well, prominent person. He was like the ordinary son of a great father while he was a ordinary father to an extraordinary son. Well, today's qt focus was also on the fact that Issac made the same mistakes as his dad in saying that his wife is his sister. Well, the qt reminded me that children and juniors will follow your actions. Therefore, if you don't do a good testimony, your children and juniors will learn that too. How are you going to account to God when you face Him then? Therefore, it is imperative that one have to be a good example to his children and juniors. The only way to do that? Depend totally on God and to follow His commands. Really tough order, but it's the only way to succeed.

Issac made the same mistakes as his dad, both in going away from the promised land and into the other land and also lied about his wife. However, he was still a father of faith. After his setbacks, he stayed on the promised land. His life was also so good that non-Christians also attracted to him because God blessed him. At first he was kicked out of the land by the Philistine but after that the Philistine made a pact with him. Therefore something that we can learn from all this is that although we may have setbacks. As long as we go back to the Lord, God will help set our paths right and then we can continue to be a good testimony. That is if we allow God to work in our lives. Therefore lets make the right choice. :D

To God be the Glory

Matriculation

2008-07-08T04:27:00.000-07:00

Went to the matriculation today with Wei Hong..... The whole school was brimming with activities... Well, before I even enter the entrance I was already ambushed by people promoting their CIP activities.... Haha.... Well, by the way, for those who doesn't know, SMU have this compulsory CIP programme... Must fulfill 80 hrs before one can graduate from the gates of SMU.... well, I intend to just chiong for most for the activities before school starts.... Firstly, I am not much tied down by school nor church commitments... but it will not be so next time... so just clear it and get it done and over with.... Well, I sound like I am being forced to do CIP.... Well, I don't mind doing CIP just that I don't like the compulsory 80 hrs that comes with it.... The 80 hrs just somehow will hang in the back of my head like its something that I have to fulfill... a mission.... it kinda take the fizz out of the CIP... Well, strictly saying, our church work already do like zillions of CIP, for gospel of course... The CIP is just part of the whole package in our church work..... Well, don't need or want the recognition for the CIP for the sake of the CIP because the main aim is to share the gospel in due time.... Well, but then since we are doing things like tuition, I think we can raise it up to count it as a CIP... like that we will save time too and can focus more of Church stuff.... Well, don't know the implications though.... so Wei Hong is asking Ailing about it.... If it doesn't then there should be no problems with fulfilling the 80 hrs.... Well, if it cannot be included, its still ok..... haha... the tuition ministry is not for CIP to begin with... It was to help the kids and reach out to them to begin with.... see how it goes

Well, ordered a tablet.... haha, T5010 fujistu.... good specs, supposedly good reliability, 3 yr warranty.... well, the this time round, everything that they recommend is fujistu.... The school tested it and found it the most suitable for the school environment.... haha, I hope they really vigourously.... I don't want my lappy to spoil soon after.....

Well, after much discussion with Wei Hong, we decided to go for the business camp.... At first we wanted to avoid all the camps possible. However, to know our school mates and to reach out to them and also to be a good testimony, we decide to have more exposure with other people.... Haha, was actually quite tempted by the SMUX (all extreme sports-somewhat) camp.... but it didn't fulfill the any other purpose besides fun.... may be one gets to meet people from other faculty, but we are already doing that in FTB (freshmen teambuilding camp)... We might as well know the rest of the biz people because we not just get to reach out but also for other school stuff... Well, Wei Hong did a very good analysis and judgement with regards to which and whether we should go for any camps.... He reminded me of the principles etc... To say the truth, I didn't think that much.... haha, guess that is something I can improve upon... Grins, he asked questions like the biz camp got clubbing etc.... haha, thank God that they toned it down this year... wells, may be i didn't really think of it because I wasn't intending to go any camps to begin with.... Wei Hong did his homework, while I didn't... haha, more rooms for improvement... Good job brother :D

Well, also did other things like applying for debit cards etc.... got some rebates for SMU students....

Oh wells, was quite tired... Thank God that at least the main part of matriculation is done.... haha.... looking forward to school... dunno what it brings :D

To God be the Glory

Saw the doc... it is heartburn

2008-07-08T03:37:00.001-07:00

Well, just saw the doctor... it is heartburn... so gotta watch my diet.... and not have too much stress.... haha oh well, whatever it is i gotta watch my health.... :D

feeling better

2008-07-06T22:12:00.000-07:00

Well, Kai En, thanks for your concern.... haha, feeling much better.... well.... was feeling down because like somehow like i am still so distanced from you all.... haha, had a chat with wei en last night, after the concert though... haha, it was late so didn't talk to you Kai En.... sorry.... well.... I was feeling down because I felt like I wasn't really part of the team in CYYAM.... haha, like after the retreat like everyone super gum together.... Wasn't jealous.... but like feel like not part of it.... so kinda feel a bit left out.... Nothing wrong with being super gum.... in fact it was super good.... just that I don't really understand why like its seem like everyone was zooming off with the word "go" while like it seem like I just only took a step away from the starting line.... Well, haha, did pray about it.... and God really give me an answer almost right away on Saturday.... The author said that when it seems like others have lots of progress, while you are only seem to be chugging slowly, God may have a reason for it.... He has the reason for me to wait.... so just depend on it..... (the basic geist of it).... Wei En also reminded me that it is not about comparing between people but rather whether that is the pace that God wants me to go.... It is more important to be closer to God and have a good relationship than anything else.... God will then settle the rest.... Well, thanks Wei En... was really reminded.... Well, the only thing that I can do now is to trust God's plan.... though don't seem to understand it.... haha... Wei En said that may be God purposely put a pause to see how I will handle and overcome this.... oh wells..... may be..... haha....
All in All to God be the Glory

remind me :D

2008-07-03T08:49:00.000-07:00

k, people, if you see me eating this, remind me k.... things that i shld avoid....

Foods that are fried, sautéed or prepared in butter or oil (this one is a big no no.... at least for me)
High-fat side dishes such as onion rings or French fries
High-fat sauces, gravies and salad dressings
Tomato-based foods and juices
Caffeinated beverages such as cola and iced tea (tea shld be ok right? just not too much)
Citrus drinks like lemonade or orange juice (i think moderate amounts can.... )
Alcoholic beverages
Chocolate (awww.....)
After dinner mints

well, another post...

2008-06-30T23:48:00.000-07:00

Well, another day, another post.... To be honest, I didn't really have a very fruitful QT, so didn't know what to write in my blog... My mind seem to be in a mess, if not, in a zone out mode.... geez, don't like it at all... need to evaluate what is causing all these...

Well, today QT is about Abraham sacrificing his son to God and the whole process. Today's QT main focus was on obedience. What type of obedience did Abraham shown?

Immediate Obedience- Immediate obedience is frequently found in Abraham.... When God told Abraham to send Hagar and her son away. He did so immediately. He did the same when God commanded him to sacrifice Issac. He did the preparations and move out immediately on the next day morning. How many times do we dilly-dally when God ask us to do something? For me I frequently struggle to immediately obey... I guess part of it is my struggle to believe that whatever God wants me to do it is for the best.... Need to really improve in this area

Sustained Obedience- Abraham's obedience is one that is sustained. He didn't just do it halfway and then give up... or pause for a while before carrying on... He keeps on doing... Many times, Christians fail to have sustained obedience because their eyes are towards the things that are not of God or are distracted by things that are not of God... This is also something that i have to work on.... frequently get distracted by the things around me

Willing Obedience- Abraham didn't just obey what God told him to do, he do so willingly.... Is it possible that one person do not obey willingly even if he do that thing as to what God tells him? Yes it is very possible... One can do what is told but be grumbling about what he is given to do. He can also be doing what is told to do but then in his heart he is rebelling every part of the way. God is very displease with this kind of obedience because it is no obedience at all... And it is very hypocritical.... It is no different from the Pharisees and God says that if we are to be with Him, we have to be better than the Pharisees... we better take a look to make sure that our obedience is willing and not unwilling....

There are two more points for obedience but these few points are the one that grabbed my attention... really hope that I obey like how Abraham did

To God be the Glory

something to think about

2008-06-24T06:34:00.001-07:00

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/uk_news/7470297.stm

Well... dunno what title to put for this

2008-06-23T08:33:00.000-07:00

Well, I really don't know what title I should put for this or how I should start writing this post. Oh wells, will try anyhow whack. Well, recently there has been some interesting going on. Well, people say that this is the time where its time to get a relationship or at least start thinking about it. The world will advocate it earlier. Hmm.... k, haha, super messy. Let me organised my thoughts.

K, well, how do I view all this? I agree that I should pray about it. Prayer will never harm it can only help. So therefore it is better to start early (actually its not that early... many people have pray consistently when they are younger. I prayed about it but intermittently). Haha, people have also start to say that should start observing etc. There are also people who say that can consider the church people.

Hmm... what are my thoughts for all this? Should I start observing? err... well, I don't really think I am ready for this. Some people say that if you are not ready can still observe. Well, ya, but I am definitely not going to go on active sonar or whatever. I think I should spend more time learning His Word and growing than use it in this area for now.

Well, as to the fact of considering the church people... hmmm... well, the sisters in church are nice and godly. However, currently like I stated earlier, I am not ready. haha, when the time is right will definitely consider. But just not now.

I feel that before I go into a relationship, I should be able to lead, not just like the way the people of the world lead but rather in a godly way. To do that I must first have a healthy relationship with God and also grow more in Him and also have a close walk with God. Currently I am still growing and still working on my many flaws, therefore I think still not time yet. I don't just have to lead my wife but also my children. If my foundations are not grounded in the Lord, the whole family will be messed up and my children will not grow close to the Lord and my wife will suffer. The whole family will suffer and will be miserable. I don't want that to happen to my wife and children. I will not let my family suffer in this manner.

may post more on this topic next time...
To God be the Glory

What I have learned from QT today

2008-06-23T07:31:00.000-07:00

Really learned a lot from today's QT. However, my mind is currently still not very organised so don't really know how to go about blogging it. Today, the main part of the QT that i remembered was about Lot again. Well, why do I seem to focus on Lot? Well, first thing is that the author James Boice focus on him yet again. Secondly is the fact that Lot really portray the typical Christians that we see in our day? Pathetic? Sad? Well, I really don't think I am in any way fit to judge. Why so? When I compared myself between Abraham and Lot (lets imagine there is a scale there. Lot on one side, Abraham is on the other) I think I will probably be somewhere near Lot. That is definitely not good. Oh well, I am trying my best, and with prayer and with support I know I will be more like Abraham. Just a reminder, this doesn't lead to salvation. It is what a saved person is supposed to do. Doing more good doesn't lead to your salvation. Buddhism, Islam etc teaches that way, but Christianity is about faith and trust in God.

So what can be concluded about Lot? Lot made many errors. One of his first error was to move near Sodom. From there, his principles slowly get eroded by the ways of Sodom. It didn't seem much at first. It may not look exactly harmless at first but neither does it look like a bad choice. The first compromise lead to the next and so on (read the posts below to know what he compromised on). Slowly his heart became hard towards sin. He seem determined not to change from his ways. How do we know? He actually pleaded to the angels that he cannot run that far and that he wishes to remain in a place near Sodom. He doesn't wish to run far far away. At first it seem like it is quite reasonable, after all he must be well advanced in years. He may not be eighty and above, but he is definitely not less than forty, unless he left Ur in his youth. Sodom was surrounded by mountains. These are definitely not the heights of Bukit Timah Hill. However, if he had really trust the Lord, then the Lord will have given him power and strength to overcome it. Instead, he was trying to debate with the angels. It was obvious he wasn't really wanting to leave the "world".

Well, what I have learn and reminded from this is that we really have to run from temptations. REALLY RUN FROM IT! If we flirt with temptations (as what I do sometimes. Got to really watch out when this happens), there will be times where we will let the small sins (seemingly harmless ones) in. When these sins become fully grown, it will lead to death. Well, still unconvinced. I am not the one who says this. It is the bible which time and time again reliterate this point. Well, but I think this is one of the things that the typical Christians is facing now. Whether we can overcome it depends on whether we depend on the Lord and whether we decide to hug the world (which will bring you great rewards now, but then if one really gets saved, then I guess it will be by the skin and teeth) or to grab on to God's word and do what He teaches. (May be rewarding now, but then it comes with great suffering. However, there will be great reward in heaven). May the readers of this blog choose the second choice. Easy to say but tough to follow. Well, no one godly men has ever said that the Christian walk will be easy.

In the end, what happened? Lot's daughters commit incest with Lot. They gave birth to Moab and the Ammonites. Well, what actually lead to this? If Lot haven't gone to Sodom, and instead been teaching them godly ways and be a good father, this will not have happened. However, he easily compromised on the principles. Whatever the father does, the children will absorb it like sponge. They may not really have seen the godly side of Lot but rather the world- hugging Lot. The surrounding people are well, you know, pure evil. Therefore they are totally immersed in the world and therefore follow the world. Therefore, Fathers and fathers to be, better be a good example to your children. Mothers are to help too. However I think fathers are to take the leading role and guiding role. Therefore, what you do will really affect your children. If the father is someone who doesn't do a good example e.g. always working and don't spend time with his children, or taking up some vice, just don't expect your children to be better off. If they are it is because of God's grace and mercy. However, whatever happens, you will not really play a part in your children's life, and well, it will obviously be sad.

Well, there are many other things that the author pointed out. All the points are valid and good. However, if I continue posting it may become too long. Therefore, buy James Boice, really good commentator (not making an advertisment for him).

In All, To God be the Glory

Relatively Fruitful day

2008-06-23T07:02:00.001-07:00

Today, was really quite a fruitful day... ok, may be i spend a little bit too much time sleeping... sleep till nine then have a afternoon nap from four plus to six... Today met up with wei en to try out the extended prayer with QT. Hahaha, we didn't try the four hours one. Rather we start with two hours. Haha, I guess starting small is good because if we try four hours one immediately then I think will fail. Well, we wanted to go Fullerton because it is quite quiet. However, on the way there, we saw the park that was super quiet and since the weather was nice, we think that it was a appriopriate place to start the prayer and QT. Well, I wasn't sure how to start. Thank God that in the end just start lor... haha... Well, learn alot for QT. Also had a really good time of prayer. Really feel focused after that. I think I really should make this prayer thing and QT thing a everyday habit. Haha, don't know whether I will be able to sustain it when school starts, but I guess if I depend on the Lord and have the right principles and focus should be able to make it. Anyways, two hours is like 1/12 of a day, so actually it isn't much. After that had lunch with wei en before going back to take a nap. After that practised my bass... Yay, learned the third string... Soon can play in worship... And then exercised. Haha, now blogging... Well, guess there are still improvements to how I use my time, but I guess today is better than the past week. Praise the Lord
To God be the Glory

Argh... my body is breaking down

2008-06-19T06:33:00.000-07:00

Man, my body is seriously breaking down... I think i need to have a healthy diet and also enough rest and exercise, or my body is gonna be a broken down machine soon...

Are we grabbing to the world like how Lot grab Sodom?

2008-06-19T03:42:00.000-07:00

Today's QT has another big impact on me. It was talking about the angels warning Lot to leave Sodom before its destruction and the incident where the people of Sodom wanted to rape the angels when they were in the city of Sodom.

Lot is a representation of the many Christians that we see today. Yes, no doubt they believe in the Lord (both Lord and the people who is living like Lot). They yearn to follow the Lord, but will not leave the world, or are still embracing the world. They are half-hearted and slothful in their Christian life. Worst still, they may be sliding backwards towards more the more worldly lifestyle than when they first embrace Christianity. Lot did not have direct revelation from God. He probably heard God's promise to Abraham through Abraham himself. He probably was drawn by the grandeur of the promise. While following Abraham, he probably grew materialistically ( the number of flocks that he and Abraham had is so large that the shepherds from the two family started quarrelling over watering holes) and spiritually. How far he has grown spiritually we do not know. However, in the New Testament, Peter said that Lot was righteous and was grieved by the sin of Sodom. This is probably true because at first he was living near Sodom and not Sodom itself. However, he slowly backslided to living in Sodom and even became part of its council. It is directly against Psalms 1. We can see how much he backslided when he willingly gave up his daughters to be raped to protect the guests. Thank God for His mercy that his daughters were not raped.

Lot wished to follow the Lord. He made some effort. However, when given the opportunity, he chose the world instead of continuing his walk with God. Sure, some people might say that he didn't really have the choice right? He had to separate from Abraham. If he choose another land, the godly Abraham has to choose the area around Sodom. However, I think he didn't even bother to think and set his principles before he go and live near Sodom. He just choose it because the land was good. I believe that Lot know that the land of Sodom was wicked. That was why he didn't live in the city in the first place. He probably must have thought to himself that the city is wicked, so he just have to live near it to get the convenience of supplies and things but not be influenced by it. How foolish he is. He was obviously influenced by it. Just see how much he backslided. He even called the Sodomites as his friends. I guess Lot build his wealth, reputation, and everything during his stay in Sodom. We can infer that he is rather successful (worldly) to the point that although he is not a citizen of Sodom, he is one of their leaders. However, all these things come to naught. Everything was destroyed. Nothing of Lots possessions was left. Not his wealth, nor his sons-in-law, nor his wife, nor is reputation. NOTHING AT ALL. He was like somebody who knows to keep treasures in Heaven but failed to do so and instead build treasures on earth. In the end, he is like those who are just going to barely escape the fires of hell. Nothing that he build will stand. Only himself.

I am thinking, are we like him? Do we hold on to the treasures of earth when God promise more? Are we just building treasures on earth and not store treasures in Heaven? When the fire of judgement comes, will our works be like gold or silver? Or will it burn to bits? God have mercy on us, on this generation and on the generations to come. We are usually too engrossed with the things around us. Too caught up with the world. Having all the wrong kind of fun. Partying away (for some). Wasting our time away.

This world has become more and more like Sodom. People are trying to justify that gayism is created by God and should be celebrated. People tries to justify gayism and even encourage it. One day, the general population will accept it. Lying, Slandering, getting rich at the expense of the poor and neglecting of the poor, adultery etc will happen more and more. There will probably still have faithful ones who still be the light and salt of the world, but they will be ridiculed. And God will still show mercy to the world because of the faithful ones before the day of judgement. But God's wrath is burning. It is getting hotter. Therefore, anyone who reads this blog and who is not a Christian, please repent of your sins and receive Jesus Christ as your saviour. For the Christians, we have much to do. Sure, salvation is by faith and not through works. However, one way to know whether we are really Christians is whether our lives have changed, whether we are doing good. The day will come where we will not have the chance to do good anymore. So grab the opportunity while we still can. Or we can always be like Lot and be saved but then we will barely make it.

Does this mean that Christians cannot go into Sodom? No, they can. However, when they go in, they go in as missionaries. Their job is to witness to the people and not getting influenced by them and end up embracing their wickedness. If we want to witness to the gamblers, we can live with them and talk with them, but not gamble with them. If we are tempted to sin with them, then it is better for the person to run away and not even try to stay with them. Somebody else more suitable should take the job. And there will be people suitable. It is better to run away from temptations than to sin with the sinners, if not your testimony is ruined. May God help us in our weakness. Therefore, before we go into any field to reap the harvest, it is best if we have the direction from the Lord to enter, or we will definitely suffer. If we have the direction from God to go in, then GO IN boldly. God will give you strength in your weakness. Well, easier said than done. May God help us in every area.

To God be the Glory

Baggage probably floating somewhere out there

2008-06-19T03:32:00.000-07:00

Received telephone calls everyday from Jetstar... " Your baggage has still not been found.... blah blah blah..." oh wells.... Felt sad not because I lost my new billabong slippers nor the chargers etc, but rather because the presents that my sis and Ailing bought for me are lost before I even received them.... :(

Sigh... Oh wells, I believed everything is in the Lord hands. Haha, this is the first time and I don't think this will be the last time that my baggage will be lost. Since God allows it, I guess I have to accept it.... Maybe it is somewhere in Europe, Africa, Asia, or America... If so I guess the baggage will have a better life than me. Maybe it dropped out of the plane during turbulence (super unlikely) and is floating in the South China Sea and picked up by fisherman. Or it might be floating all the way to Singapore... Though that will probably take years... Haha, maybe I should stake out in East Coast or something for the next three years to wait for my bag to float by... Haha, help me look out for this SA travel bag that is blue in colour next time you are in East Coast k? You never know, may be it is really mine... hahaha

Oh wells, all Glory goes to God...
To God be the Glory

oops, i did it again... sigh

2008-06-18T07:46:00.000-07:00

Man, it is really so hard to be careful. Didn't know it can have such a big repercussion for so small an action. However, when my sister points it out, I had to agree that it will definitely send the wrong signals to other people. Sigh, why am I so careless and never thought it out carefully?

Wait, before anyone gets any wrong idea, I guess I better clarify it so that people know what I am talking about. Well, what am I talking about then? Ok, let me tell you a story. There is this guy who just bought a nice necklace in Taiwan. He had difficulty putting the necklace on because the hook is just so small and hard to open. Hence, the seeker decided to help him put it on. Well, the guy just accepted it because it just somebody helping out right? Nothing wrong with that right? So he just said ok. Well, back in Singapore, a few days latter, he found out that actually that that was not so ok after all. Why? That is because there was someone who reported to the sister what happened and so the sister went back home and decided to have a talk with her little brother.
This is what she said:" Did you ask so and so to help you put on the necklace?"
Little Brother: "Ya, why?"
Sister:" Why did you asked the seeker to put on the necklace for you?"
Little Brother:"Cos, like its a bit difficult to put on you know."
Sister: "You know you can send the wrong message to the person and the other sisters-in-Christ?"
Little Brother: "Huh? Really? But it just putting on the necklace you know."
Sister: " If it was your girlfriend or your wife putting it on for the other guy how will you feel?"
Little Brother: "errr...... hmmm....."

Oops, I did it again. I failed to be sensitive to this kind of situation. I really didn't know that it will lead to that. At that time my thoughts was like "Argh, so difficult to wear. OOHHH, someone is willing to help. Sure, I don't mind the help." Oh wells, on second thoughts it really can result in a lot of things. Man, really have to be extra careful on this kind of things. If not people will get the wrong ideas and also cause others to stumble. If any readers or anyone who know about it can resulted in them getting stumbled or having confusion, I am sorry. Please do not follow my example. Sigh, I have to remind myself that I am living in a more conservative society. However, there is nothing wrong with this conservative society. At least it means that people are careful with what they do to ensure that what they do doesn't cause other to stumble. I guess I got more to learn. Need to learn to be more sensitive.... Sigh.... terrible mistake.... Guess the insensitivity is partially due to where I was brought up in where it was less conservative? Whatever it is, it is wrong to cause others to stumble or to have the wrong idea. I guess caution will be good....

I don't really know how this post will bring glory to God, but the All Glory goes to the Lord
To God Be the Glory

What I have been reminded during QT

2008-06-18T03:49:00.000-07:00

For today's QT, I have been reminded of Abraham interceding for Sodom and Gomorrah in his talk to God. He pleaded with God not to destroy Sodom and Gomorrah if there are a certain amount of righteous people in it (starting from 50 then drop all the way to 10). When he pleaded with God, he started small, and then slowly embolden to 10. In the end God destroyed Sodom and Gomorrah was destroyed because none was found righteous except for Lot and their family. Even his sons-in-law did not escape the destruction.

The focus was not on the destruction but rather the intercession that Abraham did. In this end times and in a wicked world, how long have we been interceding for people around us? Interceding for the country? Interceding for those countries that the gospel have not really penetrated in? Or are we still too busy to pray for them?

I believed that God reminded me of the verse in Mark 14:32-42. It talks about Jesus and the disciples in Gethsemane. During this period, Jesus was going to be captured and be crucified. Judah was already on his way to betray the Lord. The rest was following Jesus into Gethsemane. Jesus was praying earnestly to God for many things. During this period, Jesus commanded the disciples to pray and keep watch. When Jesus returned, he found them sleeping. This happened three times.

I was reminded that I was like the disciples who kept on sleeping when Jesus said to pray and keep watch. Well, we may not be in physical slumber, but rather spiritual slumber or sloppiness. We may be giving excuses that we are too busy because of this and that and have no time for prayer. Are we really that busy for God? Is not God the provider of this life and of the eternal? Who is our master? The World or God? Many times we may be conscious or unconsciously be confused about who is really our master. May God have mercy on us for sleeping may be more than three times. Sure, people may say that if the disciples have seen the risen Lord they will not have slept. Its true that after that they have not been slothful. However, before that they have seen Jesus in the Transfiguration. They have seen the Lord in His splendour. If the disciples who have seen God in His Glory and still slumber, how much more that we have to ask God to guard us from such slumber.

V.v37 " Then he returned to his disciples and found them sleeping. "Simon," he said to Peter, "are you asleep? Could you not keep watch for one hour? v.v38 Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak.""

How much time do we spend for prayer? 10 mins? 20 mins? In the Lord's time, He usually redraw from the crowd to pray. I don't think he prayed for 10 to 20 mins. I believed that he spend much more time than that. If our Lord our God spent so much time to pray. How much more time we must spend on prayer! We who are fallen and sinful in nature are to pray continuously so that we are not lead into temptation and also to continue to draw on God's strength. God help me for I am weak.

We are closer to the end times than our ancestors. If one doesn't believe, just look at all the end time prophecies that the bible made and what is happening now. We still have wars between nations and between brothers. There seem to be more natural disasters. We can still continue to slumber, but then when God judge, how are we going account to Him? God already said that we will know not of the time when he is going to return. Only God the Father does. We can be like the five virgins who are prepared or the five who are not. I rather become the one that is prepared. I encourage my readers to keep watch and keep praying, not just for ourselves, but also for our brothers and sisters-in-Christ, those people around us, those persecuted, those who are lost, those who are hardened, those who are weak, those who are strong, those who are our leaders, those who are not our leaders, those from our church, those from other churches... You get my point.... May God have mercy and help us in our weakness. Lets not be a lukewarm Christian or a Christian that has lost his fire. Lets be reignited by the one who is the source of everything that is good and righteous, the Alpha and the Omega, The one who was and is and is to come.

To God be The Glory

Taiwan trip

2008-06-17T00:35:00.000-07:00

Haha, most of you will probably heard many praises and comments from people who has been to Taiwan, like, how good is the trip, the fellowship, the hostel etc... so i will probably just touch on them but not gonna go in depth...

Taiwan is a land of natural beauty... Just look at the Toroko gorge and the pebble beaches and you will get the idea... It is also has one of the world tallest buildings. The food is nice and cheap, the clothes are also cheap and nice.... The people are usually nice except the bus uncles (at least most of those that we met)... The bus uncles are somehow unusually grouchy... May be it is because their job is too mundane that they just want to let off some steam. The tour coach uncle however, is very nice to us and also bring us to many places....

Really loved the hostel and the madam who runs the place... Haha, the room reminds me of a army bunk... except that this is fully air conditioned and much cleaner. Well, nice rooms and nice environment doesn't make the place nice though it does help somewhat... You can be in some wonderful place but still feel lonely... The companionship of your friends, esp bro-and sis-in-Christ can make a nice place a hundred times nicer....

Well, if one wishes to know how nice taiwan is, then i think it is better to talk to those people who went there. I don't think a blog post will do justice to the beauty of this trip.... I would rather share what I have learned from the Taiwan trip

I was reminded of my insensitivity to people's needs. There were many times when the girls needed help on the trail or carrying of bags etc. There are times when i failed to notice the needs esp when I am not conscious of it. It took me so long to improve in this area, and yet there are still so many times that i failed in what seems to be a minor thing to some but an important thing that I have to learn to be more Christ-like. Thanks for the brothers' prompting when I failed to notice these areas, they have been a great help and reminder. That is what a fellowship is for, and I thank God for it although there were times where it seems tempting to switch church just because there are cultural difference (somewhat) between the main bulk of the church people and me. Well, I believe that Satan or my sinful self wants me to believe that I am unable to fit in and wants me to go another church. However, thank God when I talk with Ming Yang and also other brothers that I come to a conclusion that there is not where God wants me to go. God also given me the strength to overcome such thoughts and also the strength to move forward although I must say that there were times whether it feel just so tempting to just give up instead of moving forward because it can be quite tiring. However, when did God ever say that running the race is suppose to be a walk in a park? It was not, is not, and will not be a walk in a park. So may God have mercy on us to have the strength to finish the race He had set for us to run.

Although was quite sick through the whole trip, but God brought me through it. Wasn't really enjoying the first few days because was having such a headache and sore throat, but the concern from the brothers and sisters and also God's providence, managed to go through the whole thing and even manage to enjoy myself.

Another thing that i learned from the trip is that when I serve I really need to have the right motive and mindset. Actually there were times when I dread leading the songs because I wasn't used to it and also feel that like that I cannot enjoy myself thoroughly. There was a fierce internal struggle within me because part of me want to grab every opportunity to serve and part of me wants to drop it because it seems the easier way. Thank God that i put everything to the Lord's hand. Prepared for it during the flight there and leave it to God. Thank God I didn't feel much pressure from it. However, the internal struggle was still there.... sometimes it seem to be winning and sometimes it seems to be overcomed. In the end my turn came. Well, I didn't expect it to rain so heavily and everything had to be cancelled. Well, really thanks for the support that the people gave afterwards. Was I really disappointed? Yes and no. Yes, because I already prepared for it. No because I believed that it is part of God's plan. haha, anyway, if God really want me to serve in that area, I believe He will not let me off.

Well, another thing that I have been reminded of is that God will intervene in the plans that we have made. Well, the plan was to sing in the fisherman's wharf and then Uncle James will share. God intervene by making it rain heavily and also gave Uncle James a migraine. I was like oh no.... However, I was somehow assured that the plans that we had was not the best (may be for the seekers-it seems so, or in other areas). I was reminded that when we come to the end of our plans or when it is ruined, there is a big possibility that God will be in it to move us in a different direction ( ren2 de4 jing4 tou2 jiu4 shi4 shen2 de4 kai1 tou2). I shared that with the brothers around me. Well, heard that the two groups esp winnie's group had a great sharing in the restaurant. Well, if we have stayed on in fisherman's wharf, the effects may not be as good and the sharing at the restaurant may not be as long and as fruitful. What we have planned may seem to be the best but God knows better. Haha, by the way for everyone's info on why I think the whole thing is like God special guidance? The rain become smaller and eventually stop once we board the ship... (it stop after we reached the other bank) and Uncle James migraine become stabilized soon after and got better soon after...

Again all I can say is To God be the Glory

Sarai's unbelief, God's patience

2008-06-16T23:22:00.000-07:00

QT for today has been interesting. Was reading on Genesis and today the QT was talking about Sarai's response to the Three strangers' promise and her unbelief of the promise. Essentially, the Three strangers ( supernatural beings... hinted to be the pre-incarnated Jesus) told Abraham that he will have a child next year. Sarai, being a woman of the Orientals could only listen to the conversation in the tent. When she heard of the promise, she laughed. She laughed not because she was happy but rather it was because of her unbelief. She did not believe that it will come true because her husband was old and she was past the age of child-bearing. The three strangers then asked her why she is laughing. Her reply was that she did not laugh. The strangers then pointed out that she did.

There are a few lessons that I have learned from this QT passage. The first being the fact that I was similar to Sarai when it comes to unbelief. In fact I think she is better in this area than I am. Sarai have many good reasons for her unbelief. She was old and barren (90 plus, impossible to bear any child). Her husband was old (at least ard a 100). God has promised Abraham many times before but up till now have not fulfill it etc. It was rather logical for her to lose faith and laugh at what the strangers said. The strangers gave her the chance to change her unbelieving heart. She used her opportunity instead to lie. God being a righteous God and a patient one, pointed out her sin. However, even though she sinned, God still fulfill the promise of child bearing.

Many times throughout my Christian walk, I have been filled with unbelief. Unbelief whether I could fit into CYYAM, unbelief about whether God is really guiding me through army and my study life etc. Really thank God that He has been patient with me and guiding me throughout my journey of life even when i was filled with unbelief. He also showed me time and time again that He indeed been guiding me through my life. There are really quite a number of things that He has shown me that He has been guiding my life that it is really hard to list it down here one by one. Well, through all the experience, I have been growing closer to the Lord. However, does that me that I will not be faced with unbelief? I think not. There are still small things that I know that if I give up, and filled it with stuff like prayer and reading more of His word, I will gain much more than what I have been doing now. Well, those little stuff are like (reading too many mangas, playing too much comp, wasting my time away by staring at the comp screen etc.) Been trying to improve on it. I guess there is still much improvement. Why? That is because I it is so entrenched in my lifestyle that though I know that it is better for me to give up I have difficulty really doing so. Having the knowledge that it is better doesn't mean that you will follow up by really giving up. I think this is due to my unbelief of the promise of God that He will give me better stuff if I give it up to spend more time with Him. Guess I have much to work on. Really thank God that he reveal to me time and time again about my mistakes.

The second thing that I am reminded of from this QT is that God will point out the mistakes whenever you make it. It may be through the people around you esp when you are hardened in sin that you cannot heard the Holy Spirit's prompting or through the Holy Spirit's guidance. One can continue to sin after that or repent and turn towards God. In Sarai's case, she sinned further after God asked her. Many times we are just like her. God prompt us because He loved us. However, due to our unfaithfulness, we still continue to sin in that area or sin in other areas to cover up. David sinned against God in terms of adultery. Instead of repenting, he hardened his heart and murdered the husband through the means of the enemy's sword. If our spiritual seniors are prone to such errors, then it is very likely that we will also commit such errors. Have I made such errors? Definitely. However, praise be to God. He shown me where I was wrong and help me through such errors. Well, one thing that we can be sure of if God help us through such things is that God is with us and is helping us, and that we are also responding to Him. If we do not respond to Him, we will slowly fall away. Therefore, if people point out our mistakes or God use the Holy Spirit to prompt us, do not delay in responding to Him. It is God great mercy that He is faithful in our unfaithfulness. We can continue in such unfaithfulness or we can turn around and let God and God's people to help us through our difficulties. I can only say Praise God for His unending mercies and His faithfulness. Many times I have stumbled, but God has pulled me back from the pits of sin. May God continue to help us

We can continue to laugh at God in our unbelief of His promises, whether big or small or we can be like Abraham, though he failed time and time again in his unbelief (like having a child with Hagar), he grew up being closer to God and believe in the promises through his actions (like waiting for God to go through his sacrifice and also preparing to sacrifice Issac even though Issac is the son of promise, just because Abraham believe that God will provide). I am working towards giving up the stuff mentioned above because I believe that giving up such stuff is not actually giving up anything for God will bless us with more. I do still have my unbelief, so God please help me.

In all I can only say, To God be the Glory

Simple Struggles, great Joy

2008-06-09T04:21:00.000-07:00

Today, i faced a very simple struggle that I guess most people will easily overcome.... I was angry with myself that I actually have to struggle with small struggles when it should be easy to overcome. However, I really thank God that I overcame it....

K, many people will wonder what this simple struggle is.... Actually I think it is so simple that it is actually quite laughable..... Today, I received Yanheng sms asking the brothers to join him to buy gospel tracts for the Taiwan trip.... Really nice of him to initiate this... He sms me at about 8 while I received it at 11 (after waking up... super late right?)... This is when I started struggling.... Should I go or should I not.... Some people might ask, why should I struggle over such stuff? (Some may feel that this is nothing to do with Christian life... it is just going out with friends) Those high I and high S will immediately say yes... (they are very friends-oriented)....

Well, I am a DC.... so I am very very task oriented.... One of my first few thoughts was "Do they need me there?" (Weird qn but that was what I thought). Cos if you think about it, you only need one or at most two people to go and buy the gospel tracts and then those one or two will just split the tracts with the rest at the airport or at Taiwan. Well, I sms Yanheng when and where they will meet to buy the tracts.... After sending the sms, I was actually wishing that he said that they had already met up or it is too late to meet up.... Part of me was wishing that I do not need to go... The other part of me was reminding me that I will be giving up yet another opportunity to serve if I do not go ( some will wonder whether this is actually serving... to me it is... it is to take ownership of the Taiwan trip... to fulfill the third point of sharing the gospel to the locals)... Excuses of all sorts start popping into my head e.g. I haven't pack up for the Taiwan trip. If I go, I will probably argue with my mom again. blah blah blah... Then the thought that I am giving up another opportunity to serve keep surfacing in my mind... Thank God for that... really.... I know that by myself I will probably choose the option to slack... One thing that remind me not to give up the opportunity was the QT that I did this morning... The gist of it is simply, look, just look at the God who save us.... there is really nothing really complicated with the looking.... the challenge is whether we can constant look at God and give up the things that are distracting us.... Well, in this case the distraction was the packing (which can be done relatively fast), the "free" time can be used to slack and use computer or watch TV etc... So went there.... was late, but then the whole fellowship time, buying of tracts and tissue packs (apparently there are tissue packs with gospel, very innovative and good method of sharing gospel) and books....

All I can say is that when you give up something for God, God will not ill treat you.... In fact He will bless you in all sorts of way... may not be in the material sense, but can be in another areas like joy, understanding of friends etc.... way better than what you give up....Need to finish my packing or I will be unable to sleep... hahahaha
To God Be the Glory

Start of a new blog

2008-06-09T03:53:00.000-07:00

I have decided to start a blog again after much pondering and thinking... To say the truth, i am really lazy when it comes to maintaining a blog because i felt that it is really a waste of time if i go about describing what i did today blah blah blah.... However, after talking to wei en, I have decided to start a blog... He feel that I should share what i have learned from my Quiet Time so that I can share it with my brother and sister-in-Christ and also help encourage them. Well, I thought of other reasons why I should start a blog. One good reason is that people will get to understand me better when they read my blog. I can express myself much better through writing. Another good reason is to account for all my actions or what I plan to do. Well, it means that I am putting myself on the shooting range and prepare to get shot. Sounds dumb and crazy to some.... hahaha.... I guess it is one of the best way for people to remind me, help me evaluate, break me down and encourage me so that I can become more like Christ.... It also means that I will get hurt sometimes.... But I guess this kind of hurt is better than to pretend that nothing is happening at all and continue to do things which may not be biblical and things which may hurt other people, be it consciously or unwittingly... I really hope that through all the interaction, scolding, reminders etc, i will be more Christ-like.... haha, Christian life is really difficult.... But, when in the bible did God ever say that being a Christian will be easy? It will never be easy, but if we depend on God, we will have the strength to overcome every possible obstacle.... He will give us the endurance to run the race.... A race that is longer than any marathon imaginable.....
To God be The Glory